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Tony answers a bunch of cheesy MySpace Questions

Ten years ago to the day…

Tony Answers A Bunch of Questions – June Blog pt1
Name: Tony Hunt
Birthday: Friday the 13th
Birthplace: Buffalo, NY
Current Location: Fort Worth, TX
Eye Color: Brown
Hair Color: Dark Brown
Height: 5’7″
Right Handed or Left Handed: Lefty
Your Heritage: Italian/French
The Shoes You Wore Today: Sketchers
Your Weakness: people thinking of me without my prompting -  nice eyes …
Your Fears: Being Alone & Not living up to my dreams
Your Perfect Pizza: no anchovies and I am fine
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Hmmm..think about it.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: “kk”
Thoughts First Waking Up: “Where is…oh…damn I am awake :(“
Your Best Physical Feature: I dont have a best physical feature to my knowledge, and if I do I dont want to hear about it.
Your Bedtime: When exhaustion takes me.
Your Most Missed Memory: Eww. Too mushy for myspace.
Pepsi or Coke: neither..I dont do sodas.
MacDonalds or Burger King: BK
Single or Group Dates: Is there a third option where you dont have to call it a date? I prefer to know someone pretty well before pursueing any sort of  romantic ambitions.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: if it isnt hot, it doesnt matter.
Chocolate or Vanilla: VANILLA  YUMYUM
Cappuccino or Coffee: only if necessary
Do you Smoke: Not for months (go me!)
Do you Swear: unfortunately…yes
Do you Sing: I could sing really well when I was a kid (lots of voice training) lost it all when my voice changed.
Do you Shower Daily: at least once per day if at all possible
Have you Been in Love: yeah..hurts alot.
Do you want to go to College: I actually want to go back for grad school yeah.
Do you want to get Married: not particularly, I love relationships, but  marriage just doesnt mean what it used to.
Do you beleive in yourself: everyone believes, everyone doubts.
Do you get Motion Sickness: Only if there isnt fresh air.
Do you think you are Attractive: One can only hope.
Are you a Health Freak: Heh, i should be, I know what I am doing to myself 🙂
Do you get along with your Parents: when necessary yes
Do you like Thunderstorms: The most awesome natural occurence ever!
HELL YES!

Do you play an Instrument: Jazz percussion ~10 years
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yep
In the past month have you Smoked: nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: nope
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage: yes
In the past month have you been Dumped: nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: nope
Ever been Drunk: yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes
Ever been Beaten up: yes
Ever Shoplifted: nope
How do you want to Die: with satisfaction
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: lets wait til I grow up and then see what I will be.
What country would you most like to Visit: italy
In a Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: doesn’t matter
Favourite Hair Color: doesn’t matter
Short or Long Hair: doesn’t matter
Height: doesn’t matter
Weight: depends, i want to be attracted to the person
Best Clothing Style: Doesn’t matter
Number of Drugs I have taken: too many to count
Number of CDs I own: used to be alot, archived them and now very few
Number of Piercings: a couple…
Number of Tattoos: 🙂 no ink
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Countless. Life without regret is an idea, not a realistic state.




Inspiration…

I’ve come to expect the curve balls life threw at me. Life is a challenge. Sometime the challenges are barely worth the fight, and sometimes they mean everything to you.

Faith has always been the big one for me. I put everyone on a pedestal. People are amazing and the more you show this to them sooner or later, they begin to shine. Inspiration is a big thing for everyone. We all want and need to be inspired. I think thats a big piece of faith in itself. Inspiration. Inspiration allows us to transcend, to believe, to act, and with a little foresight allows us to be better.

Sounds hokey I know. But it’s always what I look for in people. Friends & loved ones…even the people I see in a mall. When someone does good, we shouldn’t just count ourselves lucky…we should be stocking up on karma like it was a rare metal. Some people think it is that rare, but it isn’t. I think it’s all about the people we want to be and the people we look for in friends.

That same inspiration, that faith…it makes it all worth it. If you see something that needs to be done. If you see someone that needs help. Do it. Help them. Along the way that same act will be contagious, and all of a sudden it’s not one crazy blogger writing a little post…it’s a few people that go out of their way to help others in need.

As a practice THIS is how we become a better society, a better people. I’m not talking about starting a government program to help the poor. I’m talking about helping the poor, and underprivileged…hell…I am talking about helping an old lady cross the street. Do it! It’s these same acts that serve as an example to others. It’s these same acts that should permeate our society rather than the indifference and social narcissism we’re beating into our kids. We raise the bar as individuals and society will fall in step. That increased level of inspiration could revitalize our faith in each other ten times better than the occasional tear-jerker article I see on the net.

May I am just ranting here but it’s a goal right? When I started my own consulting firm I promised myself it would NOT be one of those ventures that was just there to make as much money as possible and not give something back. I made the decision that my firm would donate every bit of money it could, and in some cases I’ll be donating resources…to the maximum amount I can without jeopardizing my future. I’m hardly giving up my ambitions, I’m just saying that my company will be a part of the solution, and not part of the many many problems we see in big business today. If you shape your business model to include giving back to the community, you will figure out a way to do just that. Instead of just one person going that extra mile…it’s an entire business. I think that if everyone in the city donated 4-6 hours of their week this would truly be a society worth being a part of. There are sooo many things that donated time and resources could resolve without spending any of our precious dollars that I think we’d find ourselves living far far easier.

And it comes back to that inspiration, that faith. We all want it, it’s just insane that we all don’t simple stand up and make it a reality. It’s pretty obvious this more a journal entry than some other edgy rant, but I still have to get these out there too. I rely on inspiration. When I read or meet new people, you can bet i am wearing some seriously rose-tinted glasses, because I want them all to inspire me, even if it’s only to teach me how to clean dishes with a big fat grin on my face…I still want it.

You might have thought I was going to lean on the more spiritual end for this entry, but the truth is I’ve been having a harder and harder time with talking about it lately. I feel like differences in opinion, and the psychological blowback from some really hard experiences from way back are finally coming to roost. I haven’t set foot in a church in over a decade, and I can count the number of times in the last twenty years on one hand. The difference is I grew up knowing, but slowly learned to question those beliefs. Before I was twenty I’d learned from the worst of people and many very hard and bitter experiences lessons that changed my perspective on what the difference was between learning how to be a better person and learning how to be what society implicates we should be doing. Fare more often than not I found myself having to take a moral high ground that made me feel more and more ostracized from both friends and family alike. I’ve since learned a happy medium with friends and family…but not so much where religion is concerned. That difference between knowing and believing, that gap between inspiration and faith, it’s still kindof a mess for me.

Okay enough with the rant…ending this sappy journal entry 😉

Gnight!

-T




It’s not all that bad…

Sometimes I’ll notice that the brighter I see things, the darker others tend to see the same view. At the same time I’ll kick back and smile and say to myself, “Self, not too shabby at all.”

…the great part is that I mean it.

My rants here may leave the impression that I am one sour angry punk. If you feel better with that impression, I implore you to read no further, because I can live with it, and if it allows you to make sense of the world…well…my work is done.

But if you’re the least bit curious…30+ years of telling myself I’m screwing things up has finally led me to understand that I wasn’t always screwing things up. A few very key changes in my life, combined with more than a few key blunders, led me here to a spot that is warm n fuzzy when I need it to be. Those things missing aren’t regrets. They are goals & ambitions, some of which I’ve had planned since I was 8.

See there wasnt just The List, there was also The List. Which is to say that there is a list of things I promised myself I would do in my lifetime. Believe it or not…I’ve already knocked out most of them. Those that are left are the projects that leave a mark and leave you grinning like an idiot all the down that nasty fall into the abyss.

You see I am already there, so now all that’s left is alot of the generic stuff (like swim with dolphins, do my jig on the great wall, meditate at the top of the great pyramid). Dont get me wrong there are a couple other things that are way higher in priority, but still…I am already happy.

…so I guess it’s just time to get happier, eh?