Monthly archives: July, 2010

It is amazing…

…just how much you can change your life in just one week.

It’s that step in the right direction, -you know- the one that you recognize to actually be a a hundred steps and and even few for mankind in general. Yeah THAT one kind of step.

You start seeing a destination and plans manifest within a strong sense of clarity.

…and you think you just might be able to live happy. That’s what it’s all about right?

Some people are all about travel, or making the biggest ball of twine, or eating the most hot dogs.

Me, I am going to be content with kids and a wife/girlfriend that won’t draw a knife across my throat while I am asleep. You might think I am joking. I’m not – it happened.

There’s more, the financial stability to be a family, and at the very least give my mom the opportunity to be a grandmother.

I want to cook for lots of people, but on my own terms…

When I talk about it here, it just sounds like I’m daydreaming but what I’ve actually planned and laid out is a real process by which I just might be able to pull off having my own little patch of happy.

…and all the time there is even more confidence in knowing I am very likely not going into this adventure alone.

I know I am being one of those guys I bitch about all the time…the master of vague generalities, but the truth is the scope of this plan includes some pretty proprietary ideas that might just create competition and…well…c’est la vie. 😉




Making the right point…with a gun.

Most of my readers already know, I may not have been born in Texas. But I feel like I was born to live here.

Not many people outside the state understand the responsibility and freedom inherent in living here and supporting the state. Many people not altogether mistakenly consider us a bunch of gun-toting loons bent on revolution.

The reality of it is half-truths are closer than the jokes.

I am a huge supporter of the Second Amendment. That said, I think registering guns to owners is essential, and making them illegal in the hands of criminals just the same.

What I don’t understand is under what premise does gun control past what is described above find solid ground?

A friend of mine linked this in FB tonight and I had to share it. It’s spot-on accurate and I fully support the point she makes…and most importantly her last statement.




Pieces

By Sum 41

I caught myself singing this in the shower…weird eh? Of course, I has also dreamed I had a cigarette the night before last. Sometimes I think it might just be mood or my subC doing that whole primal need thing. I used to have a self destructive streak a mile wide, and had to ditch everything that allowed me to lose control. There were a LOT of very hard lessons learned in that and no few very dear friends lost (not to mention innocent bystanders that got run over (figuratively).

A lot of people generally believe if they had to do it all over again, would they have made the same choices. I think honestly people overly concerned about this aren’t focusing on the real issue.

Are you capable of accepting responsibility for your actions? Rather than just dwelling on the chance to make a different choice and make it all better, recognize what is within your scope to make amends, do so, and move on. Forgiving yourself can’t be the last thing on your list, it must be the first.

Enjoy the music.

-T.

I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it,
I don’t believe it makes me real.
I thought it’d be easy,
But no one believes me,
I meant all the things I said.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.

I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn’t worth it,
Nothing could ever be so wrong.
It’s hard to believe me,
It never gets easy,
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it’s in my soul,
I’d say all the words that I know,
Just to see if it would show,
That I’m trying to let you know,
That I’m better off on my own.