Tag: Rants

Being Libra…

SO here’s today little tidbit of not-so-enlightening astrology…

Today your energy should be balanced and harmonious. You’ll feel yourself hitting your stride as you do work, communicate with coworkers, and spend time with your family after hours. The Moon is giving you a pleasant, optimistic feeling about life. It’s a good day to count all of your blessings, and recognize that it is a grand adventure simply to be alive in these exciting times.

One would think that being so in touch with myself spiritually I would stop arguing with the stars so much. Well, sorry…stars might be very communicative to people on cosmic proportions…but it just seems to me that they are meant to light the way when things get dark. You can put that in any context you want, but the stars provide us with answers…but the answer:question ratio is astonomical. (Sorry couldn’t help it!) Am I optimistic? Absolutely! But I am not fooling myself either. It’s taken a long time to develop this aversion to success, and one shouldn’t throw away finely honed skills right? …joking…come on…funny funny…ha..ha…

Learning to be successful was far too easy. Finished that gig before I hit 21. Learning how to be so ambitious as to force myself to create a situation that would force me to toil…work hard…and discover the world of reward-via-labor. 20 years of everything being so easy…so now theres this thing I call work that throws me a bone twice a month so I can make financial amends for a decade and a half of total responsibility. I love it. I get to waste my coveted brain cells solving problems that in no manner solve the worlds problems, or even those problems of those truly trying to solve the worlds problems. This is a problem…

So in presenting a problem, I am forced to present myself with a solution. Said solution must accommodate my desire to continue learning…for as long as I live. I know it sounds funny, but an environment that would allow me help others needs to occur soon…erm…at least I need to get up off my arse and stop idling. Mid-life crisis? I certainly hope not. I fully intend to have that after the wife and/or kids are part of the picture (scary thought eh? get used to it), I am hoping for like age 50 or something where I go nutters and pull out my own little bucket list and go crazy 😉

So…the question begs for a voice…What the heck does this have to do with being Libra?! Everything. Choices…choices are important to Librans…they are I daresay everything. While there is a balance in the world, most of us are in no manner content to watch disturbances in the world…at the very least we must spend significant periods of time either processing the solutions others have presented to us or devising our own! How else are we to make the world a more aesthetically pleasing place? Wars do nothing. Violence accomplishes nothing. It is the tool of the weak-minded. The real work of art is in maintaining the balance. And again…back to being Libra 😉

Okay all done streaming thought into bloggishness!

‘Night!




Wishes for time…

A single moment…where I’m not the second choice…the runner up…the backup…or the fallback.

A single minute…where it’s not morally restrictive to mention love.

A single day to wander with who I please…where I please…

A single week to reflect…

…and another lifetime to make up for it all.




and tragedy strikes

So many of my friends assumed that all these very old circle of friends started with Amtgard…nope…we were pretty tight long before…
…when they remember Micah, a brutal slaying…they remember those who committed that vile act…so many blame Amtgard, more specifically a few within the game…they were utterly wrong…place blame at the feet of insobriety and reckless indifference to self-control…the entire circle swam in it…and most of the circlewere barely able to doggie-paddle. When 30-40 people dismiss responsibility with themselves…with each other…collateral damage is a certainty…that collateral damage comes in the form of wounded and ruined lives.

Unfortunately…I never would have thought to have heard what I’ve heard and read what I’ve read.
That very large circle of old friends is again burdened with unfathomable tragedy…as I read about this I am just speechless.
On Monday June 23rd, an old friend I haven’t seen or heard from since Micah left us…this is just crazy…I just cant seem to wrap my brain around it…
…the news says the police saw the children laying in a bed covered in blood and when they kicked in the front door were forced to shoot Scott (he charged them). The blood all over the children was their fathers, not their own…and the cause of death in the children is likely being withheld. A lot of people are drawing conclusions about Scott where information about his children simply isnt forthcoming from the police.

My roomate is dating someone from the gang…she had forgotten that we had the same circles at one time, and was seeming a bit stressed and then realized I might have known Scott. Thats when she just let it rip…”Scott Montgomery commited suicide after killing both his children.” I dont think I’ve been sucker-punched so swiftly…I was kindof speechless. I had to think back on it. Scott?! “Bullshit” I thought…no way he did it. I read a couple articles(links below) and then realized that this was fucked up. I have (still) so many questions. How did the children die? How did the children die? and how the FUCK did the children die? I’ve never thought of Scott as being aggressive…HELL…he used to date one of my best friends back in the RHPS days.

I read another one of the gang’s blogs…this is just…god it’s weird. I think I am just going to do some heavy linking and stop now…I need a drink.

http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_9679127
http://www5.rockymountainnews.com/news/2008/jun/22/police-man-kills-2-kids-cops-kill-him/
http://preview.denverpost.com/news/ci_9679127
http://almosttuesday.wordpress.com/2008/06/28/in-grief-sort-of/
http://www.thedenverchannel.com/news/16680807/detail.html